DECEMBER 2009

12/10/2009 Favourite song of the day is DROWNING. Darkness, depth and the certainty this songs will never appear in any kind of hitlist. No matter where, no matter when. Ever. And before I smoke the day’s last cigarette on the balcony and the go to bed – here is the exact wording:

I’m drowning in my own reflection.
And I’m so tired of hating myself.
Don’t you see my misery?
I’m not the one I’d like to be.
I’m drowning in my own fantasies.

I’m starving with my mouth full of food,
pretending, my smile is for real.
Don’t you see this ugly face?
You’d better run for your own sake.
I’m starving while I’m drowning in abundance.

I’m choking from the air that I breathe,
still dancing to the silence of your lips.
Don’t you see I’m not proud to be
the gofer of insanity?
I am dead since the moment I was born.

I’m drowning in my own reflection.
And I’m so tired of hating myself.
Don’t you see my misery?
I’m not the one I’d like to be.
I’m drowning in my own fantasies.

Next stop: Reality

11/12/2009 It will be my birthday in a few days but before that I come around with a few presents for you. __current situation: Four songs I threw overboard. For now 14 songs remain. Some already nearly finfished. Others with missing lyrics or lyrics I don’t like anymore. It’s a fight – always. F****** lyrics.

### You want a first tracklist ###

__ you get it

  1. Sad Song (4.20)
  2. I Am You (5.16)
  3. Still The Same (7.18)
  4. Spences Bridge (4.43)
  5. I Have Been Done (5.44)
  6. I’m Wrong (6.49)
  7. Wallflower In The Dirt (6.53)
  8. Drowning (6.36)
  9. I Don’t Know (5.44)
  10. I’m Not My Friend (6.25)
  11. Anybody Listening (3.37)
  12. Cancer Host (5.12)
  13. Second (6.56)

But don’t even spend a single thought about this being the order in the end.

SEPTEMBER 2009

Exciting days ahead

09/29/2009 Nine days of loud music on my ears. Headphones to the max. A thousand ideas, but nthing clear. Still a lot to do but nevertheless a few good days bringing me closer to the aim.

09/15/2009 The starting point of something great? From Monday nine days studio ahead. New ideas, a lot of electronica. Dark and sinister, but of course I think great. Wait for more…

09/12/2009 On my way to Nuremberg to see some friends. Just a weeked trip.